anyway, here's what we read:
" If you feel the call of the spirit, then be holy with all
your soul, with all your heart, and with all your strength. If, however,
because of human weekness, you cannot be holy, then be perfect with all your
soul, with all your heart, and with all your strength.
But if you cannot be perfect because of the vanity of
your life, then be good with all your soul...Yet, if you cannot be good because
of the trickery of the Evil One, then be wise with all your soul...
If, in the end, you can neither be holy, nor perfect,
nor good, nor wise because of the weight of your sins, then carry this weight
before God and surrender your life to his divine mercy.
If you do this, without bitterness, wih all humility, and with a
joyous spirit due to the tenderness of a God who loves the sinful and
ungrateful, then you will begin to feel what it is to be wise, you will learn
what it is to be good, you will slowly aspire to be perfect, and finally you
will long to be holy. "